Some things in life are such a joke. How is this my fault? How are you going to sit back and judge me for his mistakes? I didn't force him down that road. I TRIED to save him. But sometimes people don't want saved. They think its fine and that they are fine. Things like that end lives, tear up families, and break up marriages. I gave chances out for free. I gave more than I should have more than most would have, only to have them thrown back in my face. I am doing what is right for my children. They are my priority. They are my reason for being. Without them I am nothing. They are my life!!
Maybe one day I will meet someone with the same priorities but I'm not looking. I am just planning on surviving the coming months with my sanity in tact and a smile on my face. I am all cried out. There are no more tears wasted on someone with so little remorse for his actions. He is only sorry he got caught. Of that I am sure.
I wish I could go back and change the events of life. But to change one small thing is to change everything I hold dear today and I am not willing to give up what matters most to me. I know that for some who will read this you may not understand. this is def. not my best writing. But with that said I am writing while it comes to me screw grammar!! Next time I will do better.